Life as it is....

I'm still trying to accept the fact that this is my life now....here in America when my heart is still in South Africa.

It's been great the last couple of weeks being in Chicago, meeting with friends, professors, and people at TEAM. Last night, I spent the night with Bob and Pat Wright, missionaries our church supports, who now are at the TEAM office, and spent many years in Venezuela as missionaries there. I always love talking to Pat, because she "understands." Everytime we get together, there is always laughter, but many tears as well as we reminisce and talk about our expriences. She went up to her room, and pulled out her bible, which had a poem writted inside. It read,

"I belong to two places half a world apart, pulled to opposite ends of the globe.
I don't know what home is....
Or how to get there....
But maybe some day.
The sad part is that we can only live in one place. The end result is that no matter where I am, I am always homesick."

Kind of sums of my life right now. Do I like it? Absolutely not.

I am feeling pulled....but I know I have to rely on God and depend on Him fully. I also know and LONG to get to my TRUE home, where my friends and family will all be together. What a day that will be.

My heart is in two places, and for now, I cope knowing that my Redeemer is right beside me, ready to catch me when I fall, and hold me when the tears just don't stop.