It's so hard

The next few days are going to be hard. Please pray with me, as I go home to unknowns. Personally, I have no desire to leave S. Africa, but I know I have to. I've come to love this place and the people in it, especially the last 4 months and God has done some amazing things in me, for which I am thankful.

Here are a few things heavy on my heart:

-my back still bothers me somewhat, so pray that it will hold up.

-packing...it's overwhelming, especially when you don't want to do it.

-goodbyes-they are inevitable. It's the worst part of the missionary life, which is why I can't wait until heaven.

-saying goodbye to my best friend who is more like a sister to me will be the hardest of all. I'll write more on her later....she deserves a blog post of her own. :) Pray we can have some sweet times the next couple days.

-adjusting back to America...although I'm not there yet, trust me....I think about it A LOT. I know people won't be able to relate to me, and will want to move on when I start talking about Africa and I can't stop....because they haven't been in this position. (Mel, this is where I'm counting on you!) It happens all the time, and I'll just need to deal with it. It's actually scary for me to think about.

-and the unknowns....