There are so many things going through my head right now. I can't believe I only have 3 weeks until I will be living in another country. Wow.
There are so many emotions running through my head, but one stands out. OVERWHELMED. I feel like there is so much to do before I leave. People to see, business to take care of, the tear-filled goodbyes, packing....PACKING.
Packing is something I have always done the night before, whether I am gone 1 week, or 2 months. This time however, it will be different. Not only do I need to pack for a year, I need to pack my life. My parents are moving to TN and I need to have all of my belongings in boxes ready to go. So begins the time where I will be heading to resale shops to try and get rid of some dresses that I'd like to get some money back for. I need to throw a lot of things away. And I'll give things away as well. Does anyone need a 50 in. screen tv? (haha...j/k. I don't even own one.)
And getting together with people. There are some people that have been asking for me to come over for weeks...one in particular. And I feel like I have neglected them so many times. It's not that I don't want to spend time with her....because I do. She is a dear friend. It's just that I'm a busy person. Not a good excuse, right? Are we not all busy? This past week made me realize one thing in a new way. Relationships matter. I know this. I've tried my best over the years to spend time with people, often going above and beyond and out of my way to make that happen. I'm a people person...I love being with people. But this last year or so, I've failed miserably at that. When I do have time to go out, I just don't feel like it. I'm tired, want to just relax at home, or have no desire to go out at the moment. I know I only have a few weeks left. I don't want to burn myself out, but tomorrow isn't guaranteed for any of us. And I want to see friends...friends I've neglected the past several months. I want this because I won't have you anymore in a few weeks. I'll have to make new friends, and I'll miss you terribly.
This is a new phase in my life...I'm ready to jump in with both feet.
God, give me the grace to sustain me the next few weeks as only you can.
1 comment:
it'll all come together, I know it will. and then you'll have a good long flight to catch up on sleep. If only airplane seats were more comfortable....sigh!
I'm so excited for you and super excited to see and hear more South Africa news!
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